why do people tend to fall to people they know they will never ever get?reasons why they keep on pretending everything will be fine let say because of indifference, status quo, state of living..or perhaps..FORBIDDEN LOVE and not because your mom and her mom used to be rivals or your dad and her dad punched each other’s damn face..but because your mom and her mom where relatives or your dad and her dad where bros..and vice versa..making both of you off the same blood..making the relationship somewhat incest..
this is a story about two people who do not know anything about each other..no backgrounds or information to help them..it was a warm christmas gathering that time, i was preparing the sounds for the special numbers of my cousins..when suddenly, a young girl, for the first time, walked inside the house..she’s morena, kinda tall, voluminous for her age, and she speaks english all the time so i thought she was sosyal and all..and as i was stunned by her pretty face and innocent look..she glimpsed at me and smiled at me..and no one did that to me except for people that i know..so in return i smiled back..i tried to asked my cousins if they happened to know her..but at that time i just enjoyed staring at her..i even had nice pictures of her..we never got the chance to talk..though our eyes met a couple of times during that afternoon..
of course, i didn’t let my chances go to waste so i searched who she is..i got her facebook account and eventually her number..that was the first time we talk to each other..but the big deal was..the same blood runs within our veins..she was my third cousin..i keep insisting that it would be fine..technically..it should be fine because they said that third cousins usually doesn’t mean anything..they say that your bloods are not the same because you two are way way way relatives..the bigger problem there would be the eyes of a critic..because being a filipino, we lived at certain rules and folklore that should be take into consideration at all times..and loving your “
Relative” on another level would be wrong..no matter how much you love that person..in the eyes of a critic..you’re doing wrong..
we tried to keep the relationship as a secret for we know no one will ever understand our feelings..
every i love you’s that we meant would seems like a trash for those who will not understand..
we did reach at a certain point wherein we know we cannot have a future if we keep on loving each other..we had our goodbyes..but i know my feelings will never change..i will always see her my true love..those moments were the happiest time in my life, i swear..i know i gotta move on because i know..what we had will never happen again..it would be just a memory between the two of us..i don’t know if she still think of me even just a little..but i always think about her and what we had..
as we part ways..the first story she said to me when we finally talked plays over and over again in my head..she said it to her mom, the first time we met, the first time we glanced at each other’s face; she said: “mom, sino sya?ang gwapo” and her mom replied “pinsan mo yan noh”
and she said “sayang naman”:(
sorry for the long post